Peace family, do you ever become completely overwhelmed by the details in your life? What do you do when that happens?
(This blog is probably going to be a little boring, because it is more like a personal journal entry. Just FYI.)
I have a lot of things on my plate right now, and many of them are good things, but they all take focus. Outside of work, there are friendships with issues to work through, my sweet roommate has been pretty ill for a while, and my mom is grieving the loss of her mother. I’m failing on a diet, I’m not exercising, I’ve had to buy some new clothes because my old ones aren’t fitting right, and grieving my grandmother makes me just want to eat and eat, and eat unhealthy, easy things. I’ve been having bad dreams for a few weeks, so I feel tired a lot. I just signed up for a Chinese class because a long-time family friend’s wife can’t speak English and I want to be able to have a friendship with her, I haven’t felt like practicing piano but feel like I am behind, and I’m feeling anxious to clean my house out (this seems to be normal for me when a loved one dies.) I’m also trying to finish getting a somewhat complicated gift together for a friend who will graduate from high school in 10 days, and I’m going to start fostering some kittens this evening (though I absolutely love kittens and this should actually be a pleasure, it will still take some energy.) That’s not even everything on my plate, and I also feel unsettled in several other very important areas of my life. Phew, what a mess!
I’m sure if you made a list, you could probably find just as many things swirling around in your own life, especially if you have kids! Peace family, do you have friends or loved ones in your life who can help hold you accountable to ever just be still and know that God is God?
Today, I have to choose to remember that:
- God loves me, no matter how I perform or what I do or don’t produce. God’s love for me is not dependent on my performance.
- God loves me and designed me, no matter what I look like and no matter whether or not other people ever value me, understand me, or understand the way I think and feel.
- If/as I fail daily, God is still God. God can still be glorified in my life, even if other things aren’t going as I wish.
- God’s plan is more important than my plan. During the days surrounding my Grammie’s funeral, I was reminded that God sometimes doesn’t use us in the ways that we offer ourselves to be used, but uses us in other ways that we didn’t expect, and though that can be hard and sometimes painful, that’s okay.
- God is God, and I am not. While I should do my best, work hard, love others, and live responsibly, I don’t have ultimate control over my life, because that’s God’s jurisdiction. Even when I feel like my life is out of control, I can take comfort in the fact that at least God still has control of the universe and all the important things.
All of those things are true for you and your life, too!
Peace family, let’s you and me both take time today to remember the goodness and power of God. Let’s remember how much bigger he is than our issues, and how the most important thing that we can accomplish or offer is to merely love him. Let’s take some time to be still and know that He is God.